Introspection

Why do I do the things that I do? At times, why doesn't my mind have absolute control over every nerve in my body? Why do I let go and Why I don't? Why do I react the way I react? Why do I even react when I should just interact? Where is my calm centre? Gut feeling is good but a poker face is better. Why do I reflect melancholy when I should be in jubilation? and I learn I haven't ceased to surprise myself!